Love list

Today i love...

1. The sunshine! Brings me happiness.
2. The fact i am confident in Christ.
3. I get to put on fresh clean smelling cloths from the dryer today <3
4. I get to hang out with hands for God team today.
5.Im up early enough to with paityn a wonderful day at school.
6. Celebrated Kyle Holcombs 22nd yesterday and got to give him the coolest present i have ever made.. which he loves <3
7.Red bull with flavoring is so genious.
8.The fact that there is a good show tonight with good music and people and then i can come home and watch my fav show.

Aw Life is good..

In other news...
Still looking for a job... Job hunting hardcore tomorrow once again :)
Planning on staying in central Oregon for the summer. Should be fun
I need to get my junker car fixed but for now have no money!!

Happy Mothers day!!

Today is a day to celebrate moms.. now let me tell you.. my mom she is the freaking best!! Today mom i celebrate you.




<3 To the person who always was my biggest fan no matter what i wanted to do in my life.. through my little rocker stage.. to my photography stage.. to my missionary stage shes always been my number one cheer leader!

<3 ever since i have known her my mom has look age 29 young and beautiful! Thank god for the hope i have that i will forever stay young looking if i get her genes :) Everyone always says my mom is soo gorgeous.

<3 She has the most amazing and loud laugh i know but she always brings the happiness into the room

<3 I have seen her be strong and give up so much.. completely selfless. She has taught me to be humble and a servant. She has always been my strong hold.

<3 She makes the best Italian food ever.. what can i say we have Italian in our blood!

<3 Shes the only person who will sit down and watch chick flicks and eat Chinese with me on a Wednesday night :)

<3 She fights for what she wants.. and fights for whats best for her kids.

<3 I love how girly and adorable she is.. and the fact she has 3 tom boy girls.. she never got her girly girl though.. shes trying so hard with pay

<3 I love how she always as if i wish me and her were like the mom and daughter off of gilmore girls and i just laugh cause we pretty much are. We talk about everything

<3 Tis true as you get older you relize why your mom disciplined and gave the advice she did.

<3 Shes my hero. Always has been from the day she put an amazing barbie band aid on my first cut shes been the biggest super hero i have has since.

<3 She is a pro decorater and can turn the ugliest things into works of art. Ive learned all my art skills and artsy talents from her <3

<3 She wants me to pursue my passion and that is a big deal to have such great support.

<3 Shes always gave us the best.... even if it ment she got the bad end of the deal..like she would buy us hip new cloths and she would sacrifice and stay in her old ones.. I learned that its not about what you have.. its truly about how happy you are in life and what you appreciate.. not to mention i got a mad since of good style and vintage style :)

<3 Ill never forgot all the heart ache she has helped me through.. when your young and in
love and you get your heart broken i have learned moms are always the best person to confide.. my mom has the confidence like none other and its who i strive to be like.

<3 I love every little thing about her and am so blessed to call her my mother. I was formed in her womb by god.. and he has set a special connection with us forever. Thank you god for my mama! Shes the best blessing in my life <3

Love you mom

Spring is in the air!!

What i love about spring....

Just let go!

Everyone has talents. We are each blessed with amazing things we can do. Some people are good at art. Some at teaching. Some at music. Some mentoring. Some at mechanics. Some at photography.Some at writing. Some at sharing. Some at servant hood. The list goes one.. Whats you talent? I think we truly need to embrace it. You cant get rid of it its your talent.

"And it is he who gifted some to be apostles, others to be prophets, others to be evangelists, and still others to be pastors and teachers," Eph 4:11

Last night i went to a hand for God show.For those of you who don't know hands for God is a drama/puppet team who steps out and share the word with the world. They take a step and they are just high schoolers. I use to be part of the first hands for Gods team and it was there i realized i had a passion and talent for ministry. God really opened my eyes to the hurting world on that team. So i went on to get a degree in missions through AIM which was the most amazing experience of my life! But what do you do next?! After you have the degree?!

I looked around at the kids performing there dramas with all there hearts. One really struck me.. it was a song let go by red... in the scene they have Satan telling the girl to let go of God. I feel like since i have left Aim that is what Satans been telling me. LET GO! Hes not doing anything for you he took cali away from you.. i realized and praised God that i have held on for so long. He has big plans :) These kids know he has a plan for them.. how could i forget he had one for me?? I stood there watching and a tear fell from my eyes when i began to remember my hurting Cali people. All the people God has sired on my heart. They will always be there.. my youth.. my girls.. my homeless guys.. and my second family there...Ministry is what i was made for. Its what makes me happy. Its my passion. Its what i am good at. I don't have it all together but God has told me hey you have a calling.. its kinda still like what is next?! Ok done babbling ha..




I want to give a special thanks and encouragement to the Hands for God team while i can on here and while they are on my heart. I was on the first team and they have come a long way since then. I want to thank those kids for taking such a big stand. I know how hard it is and to see them jump at the chance to share. To stand there not afraid and shout it at the top of there lungs that they are Gods children. They literally scream God is alive with there lives and there actions. Watching them perform you can just see Christ in there attitude. The Girls smile and you see Christ in the smiles. The guys belt out and speak scripture and you can feel his power! Aw its soo inspiring. They work so hard and barly get any credit but God cheering them on and that is all they need. There director is ten times amazing. She is beautiful inside and out. She is what saved me plenty of times and brought me back to level with God. She is a mom to every single one of them and loves them all for who they are. She knows she was called from God and pushes on even though shes had man obstacles to go over. She is ultimately my hero. This team is making a bigger stand then most of our youth groups and church's today. They are making a bigger impact then they even know. Guys i want to tell you hand for god team cherish your time. Open your eyes to God. He will show you greatness. The first time i opened my eyes to him on the team i was ministering to a homeless man. He was drunk and drugged out and prob wont even remember a word i was saying but ill never forget the lostness in his eyes. After he left i broke down. God showed me how hurt this world was and we started praying for him and he walks over and just takes mine and Jordon hands and starts praying with us.. i had a revelation of seeing people through Christ's eyes. I know God has that opportunity for all of you to experience while you on the team this summer. Open your eyes. Lean on each other let me tell you its so worth it. Dont LET GO. Keep Focused. I know it sucks sometimes but you all are doing an amazing Job. Man God is working through you and im so proud of you guys. You guys have some amazing power do not fear.. he is with you.. and we are all praying for you. I know this isn't much but as an ex puppeteer or however you would say, this specific team has inspired me. I just got out of missionary school and have been lost at what to do next for months. I wanted to give up so bad and let go. Watching you guys perform with such compassion, love, and strength in each other Gave me hope. Made me realize my purpose. You guys showed a sister Christ and i thank you for that. You guys.. are my heroes as well. Never forget you guys are peoples HEROS!! Gods heros to.. for showing his love to the world. Now get out there the world is your stage and you got a special message that the world needs. You guys got a strength like i haven't seen. :) Use it. I love you guys.

"Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity." 1 tim 4:12
- From one missionary to the team of young missionarys take it to heart.

Dont worry.. Be happy

"don’t wait for tomorrow. don’t wait for the right job, the right house, the right salary, the right dress size. be happy today. be happy now… one thing I know for certain: the time we have here goes by far too quickly. don’t waste any more time sitting on the bench watching life pass you by.” -joseph b. wirthlin

Star Gazing..

Isnt Gods creation amazing. The other night i was feeling really super alone and all i did was look out the window and there was the HUGE moon. Omg so beautiful with all the stars surrounding it. Why would a God so amazing want to use me and want me? I had a break down that night and a revelation that God is so good and he is the ultimate source of a happy life. That night God showed me all i need is him.Reeses. and an amazingly full moon to keep my company. The ultimate source of happiness.. :)