Sunday, February 27, 2011

Monday, February 21, 2011

I love Classy Boys

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Bits of things

Today ive realized i have a lot on my plate and its really starting to stress me out. Sitting on my laptop reading blogs today i realized how lost i am. All my friends are almost graduating college and going to move on with the degrees when all i have is a Bible degree that in this time in age isn't getting me far at all. This month has so far been full of trials. From a friend dieing, getting my hours cut at work, feeling lost when i think about my future, my car needing fixed, and trying to get over a breakup when i loved the guy for 2 years its been rough none the least.

Sometimes things are hard, just because they're hard.
not because of something i could have done differently or because i was in the wrong place at the wrong time.. just because it in itself is difficult.

It's days like today that get me super pumped for heaven.

I didn't have a particularly bad day today, just an average day.

A day like a million other days I've spent, living my life, day to day.

Because it's all I've ever known how to do.

I just can't wait for the fact that in heaven I won't ever wake up tired.

I won't ever have to fill out paper work and hope for financial aid.

I won't ever have to work, save money to buy things, or to even have to deal with the whole mess of money in general.

I won't ever have to say goodbye to the ones I care about. Just have continuous conversations.

I won't ever have to get sick, be late, or have to apologize for something I've done or haven't done.

I won't ever have to impress anyone or feel guilty about the things I'm not doing that I should be doing.

I won't ever judge anyone or look down upon those I subconsciously deem lesser than myself.

I won't ever get cold, get lost while driving somewhere, stutter because I talk way too fast, or have to do my hair.

I won't ever have to fool others into thinking I'm smart, cool, hip or whatever it is I'm trying to prove at one time or another.

I won't have to read about celebrities and deem the ridiculous things they do as a point of interest.

I won't have to just sit and wonder what in the world I'm supposed to do with my life. It will be done, I will have learned, I will be content, and I will be relieved.

I'll never have to be anywhere other than in the presence of God and do nothing but praise the crap outta Him.

Monday, February 14, 2011

...I mean, happy Valentine's day. :) ♥

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Today is a perfect day for a perfect day.

So i have been really down lately. As much as i wanted to live life and feel all good and alive again a lot has happened lately that made my life feel a little bit less then perfect. I feel like ive lost alot of friends latly and heard alot of things about the people i have surrounded myself with that are not good. Today however i have decided to cheer up and have the perfect day. I shouldn't let those things get me today i went to church and had an amazing time singing and talking to old friends, then i went grocery shopping in which i was stoked to get some red bull for this upcoming week. After this i came home to eat some Delicious sweet potato fries. and now im curled up in my sweats and watching old audrey hepburn films and sketching <3 what a great Sunday!! :) Whats ahead this week? Turn in all my college fafsa apps. Call my insurances cause i qualified for Oregon health care woot woot! Watch my lovely boys all week and try and spend some time with some quality people. :) Ill tell you how it goes.

Monday, February 7, 2011

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Life as it is...

RIP Branson Holme. Love you buddy!

"The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man who lives fully is prepared to die at any time." -Mark Twain

Recently Branson got in a really bad snowboarding accident. He was coming down a mountain and hit his head without a helmet on. He was rushed to ICU were the doctors performed surgery's on his brain trying to stabilize it enough to come out of his coma. After a week or two of no progress things took a turn for the worst. The only way for him to live was being on life support for the rest of his life and who know if he would ever come out of his coma. On Jan 21 at 11pm Branson died. We all were praying he would pull through some with all our might but God had different plans. He wanted Branson to come party in heaven with him

One thing Branson always showed was his love and devotion for God. He had the happiest spirit in the world. One could only have so happy of a spirit with god. He was a motivator and was always trying to motivate and push his piers to live there life to a hilt. To love on God and one another. He was always positive and had great concern for his piers.He wanted them to know that serving god was fun and that living the christian lifestyle is not dull or boring its a blast with new adventures each day. Whether it was organizing sports games or helping building a house in Mexico he was always up for the challenge. He showed people what a christian should look like. He was always encouraging and loving and always having a blast! Life was his and he never wasted a second of it.

"No, life cannot be understood flat on a page. It has to be lived; a person has to get out of his head, has to fall in love, has to memorize poems, has to jump off bridges into rivers, has to stand in an empty desert and whisper sonnets under his breath... We get one story, you and I, and one story alone. God has established the elements, the setting and the climax and resolution. It would be a crime not to venture out, wouldn't it?" -Donald Miller,Through Painted Deserts"
— Donald Miller

It really hit me recently that life is to short to waste any second of it. Its so crazy to look at this death of an amazing guy and think that i went to youth group and youth rally's with him and now he is gone. I heard him sing worship songs and watched him dedicate his life to showing others Christ. I watched him influence my brother mark in ways no one else could. He got threw to him on how important God was. That death could have been any of us. We don't know how short our time here on earth is. I have to ask if we are prepared. If we feel we have lived here for God and if we have been happy and content and faithful. Its amazing that God gave me another day to live and gave me Branson's example to live by. This year i am going to live life to the hilt like branson did. Im gunna love every second. Also today in Church i realized that as sad as this is and how real it really became that any of us could die at any given moment we will see him again some day. Hes up there with God. He beat us to him. What a blessing it is to know in our hearts and have reassurance we will see him again. The world doesn't have that! And i am so thankful i do. So Branson.. you win. You made it there before me. but i will see you soon k?
Love your Sister in Christ

Monday, January 17, 2011

"Women wish to be loved without a why or a wherefore; not because they are pretty, or good, or well-bred, or graceful, or intelligent, but because they are themselves." -- Henri Frederic Amiel

Thursday, January 13, 2011

New year

This year, i will diligently try to not let things go bad in the refrigerator.

this year, i will make an effort to actually keep the clothes in my dresser folded and the stuff in my closet on the hangers.

this year, i will read the whole bible and enjoy every second of it

this year, i will stop biting my nails (for reals this time.)

this year, i will try other kinds of sushi besides california rolls and shrimp tempura. (i tried a scallop roll 2 nights ago! and it was pretty good.)

this year, i will plan and prepare my lessons for church before sunday morning.

this year, i will cherish every moment i have with my friends

this year, i will improve my handwriting (especially my cursive) by writing and sending more handwritten notes.

this year, i will work work on always signal before i change lanes on the freeway.

this year, i will get up and out of bed the first time the alarm clock goes off.

what little goals will you accomplish this year?

Cheers to a new year, my friends. It'll be great.