Day Five- Compose a thankyou letter to someone who changed your life

It really does blow my mind how many relationships i have been blessed with in the part, present, and hopefully future of my life. God has place in me a talent to really get to know people, to connect with them. I praise him everyday for people he has put in my life to my family to California i praise God for all the amazing people he placed in my life. The best of friend i have and i know that is not normal in everyone's lives. As much as its not normal for a girl to have billions of friends i realize with out each individual i wouldn't be who i am today. Thank you guys for being such an undeserved gift!

This thank you letter is for someone i don't always acknowledge and i really should. My best friend and the person who holds me up a lot of the time. This thank you is to Kyle Holcomb.

To Kyle:
Thank you from the bottom of my heart
Thank you for teaching me what love really is
Thank you for the princess crown on my bday and all the wonderful presents i could have never dreamed of recieving
Thank you for being trustworthy
Thank you for those late night talks about the moon and crazy days
Thank you for teaching me about gods love.
Thank you for being a spiritual leader
Thank you for all those times you prayed for me
Thank you for listening
Thank you for sharing your family with me
Thank you for being loyal
Thank you for laughing with me and at me
Thank you for embarrassing me at the airport its a memory i will never forget
Thank you for letting me jump on your bed and eat the late night kfc biscuits
Thank you for loving me despite my love for gilmore girls and dutch brothers
Thank you for referencing harry potter just at the right time.. i am not alone.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart and in the words of jack johnson its always better when we together

Day four- write what you imagine paradise to be.

Full..

Full of happiness
Full of peace
Full of music
Full of dutch bros coffee
Full of sunlight and nature
Full of GOD
Full of kindness and encouragement
Full of oceans
Full of laughter
Full of purpose
Full of contentment and a life well lived
Full of gratitude!

RIP jeff

A year ago today i heard the news.. one of bend finest killed in a drunk driving accident. He was the driver... he was not normally the type to drink and drive but one mistake and it lead to his death. after a long grueling hospital stay he passed away a year ago. He left behind and amazing family including a 12 year old sister that looked up to him, a beautiful girlfriend who still hurts today, and a group of friend that will always remember him and now hold it in there hearts that life is short and one mistake is all it takes. Today i want to remember him. Remember his life and how full and rich it was. Remember that life is short and we must live it to its fullest. Also we can waste time. Time is limited. How are we living out life? That is at least what jeff's death taught me while i was on my field.


Here is a letter his 12 year old sis wrote to him after he died....
Jeff was a amazing person, an amazing brother to me. I can never get over the fact that hes gone so many words I can say to describe him. He was always the person I could look up to, now to look up to him I look up to the sky. May-26-2009 was the worst day of my life I always repeat in my head my mom telling me that hes not going to make it. Every single day I think about him, the way he talked, the way looked. Why did he have to leave? Ive never experienced losing someone and if I did I never thought I would lose him. He always picked me up and spinned me and I would laugh and laugh..The weekend before he died he did it one last time and got as many hugs out of me as possible. My heart feels like its not in me anymore like it dosent beat or anything its justs gone. We were really close for a brother and sister I always loved seeing him walk through the door when he would visit and it hurts to know he never will again. Nobody will never know how I feel Jeff was so different from everyone else so important to me. I still cant believe im getting through everyday without breaking down. But jeff would get mad to see me crying all the time he would do whatever to get me to smile. I wish i would of told him everything possible to say and mostly that "I love him"I know i have a guardian angel no doubt about it.When I think about him and how great he was I smile. Im am living for myself of course but Im mostly living for Jeffry because he dosent get to anymore. I am going to live my life the way Jeff would of wanted me to. I will never be okay but in Jeffs sake I will try to be:)

Lets try and live life to the fullest. Memorial on Saturday and sawyer park.. bring a balloon and write a message to Jeff in heaven on it. Drunk driving is serious. Life is short.

Day three- List the 5 songs you would have with you on a desert island

First off let me add that this is super hard to figure out cause i love so much music and i am a very indecisive person. I hate playing favorites and i hate confining myself. I think this list is so hard because why do i have to just choose 5? Also i love music and all genres of music so its makes it difficult. After much consideration and this prob could be altered here is my list...

1.memphis will be laid- Norma Jean
2.Bass Hunter - all i ever wanted
3.Jack Johnson- better together
4.Black eyed peas- i gota feeling
5.Dear whoever - tears of ashes

I pick all these not cause they are the best songs ever but they all have very fond memories! <3

Day two- Post something that inspires you

Im not alone..

"If i was he who must not be named i would want you to feel very alone"

How can you be surrounded and loved by a sea of people and feel so alone!? That's how i have been feeling lately. Its like i doubt that the people that love me do. This i realized this past weekend is exactly what Satan wants. He wants me to feel alone its when i am at my weekest. ha So in nerd reference Satan is lord voldamort and he wants me (harry potter) ha to feel so alone like i dont have friends. But i feel sorry for satan he will never experience love or friendship or fellowship and with all these things we conquer the world as Christians. We win! We are better then Satan!! Praise the lord for friends and the amazing harry potter reference i got this weekend lol.

Day one - Describe your guilty pleasures..

So along with my regular blogging i have decided to take on a blogging challenge. A whole month of blogging every day about the topic chosen. Todays topic is describe you guitly pleasures so here i go <3


*Gilmore girls ( i could watch this show for hours
*Nutella with peanut butter on a tortilla
*Keshas new album it makes me dance
*Driving with the windows down heater up and stereo full blast
*Love spell body lotion and spray
* Tan lines
* battle wounds from skating
* Face book photo comments/ wall posts
* free things
*buying shirts i have far to many of them
* editing/admiring photos
* laying in the sun reading a good book
* Starbucks passion tea
*Glamour magazine
*cliff bars for breakfast
* donkey kong